One can't relive the past!

ON THE LAST POST:
I really should stop fixating on what could be because it distracts me from where God may be leading me to go (or perhaps stay). This is all a mute point until I have the meeting with the pastor and until I feel as if God is actually leading me to start over at this church — something that would be quite hard for me as I have about a year to a year and a half before I graduate and potentially move away.

I can't relive the years that I lost when I left my former church. If I'd remember things at least a year ago, I loved my current church and life was really good. Perhaps things go up and down but we must persevere in spite of such disruptions because God will help us through trials. This phase in my life is nothing more or less than a large trial in my life — even if it encompasses the fact that I have to interface with an imperfect church. Yes, even this is a trial that one would need to overcome with the help of God rather than to simply just pick-up and move every time something bad happens. At 24, I should know this.

Though I can't relive the past, this new phase in my life (regardless of what community I am a part of) will require that I really learn how to trust God, live my life by His leading, and rely on him to provide my peace and joy. It's time to take my hands off the wheel and allow God to steer my life in the direction he wants to lead me. If that doesn't involve leading a group or switching churches, praise be to the Father for such details are insignificant compared to the greatness of the one we follow.

Certainly if I can trust such a God with my past and present, I can trust him with my future! I have a whole lifetime to lead groups and start churches — why rush what God has planned in his good timing?