Back from the conference in Minneapolis — the conference I thought I would get a job at. And, there were 28 positions available, 7 for interns and more than half for senior or upper level people. Knowing one must buy a lotto ticket to win, I left four resumés and tried to have a good time during the rest of the conference.
I arrived back to Columbus tired and deluged with a ton of work and studying. Comps is in 8 days and I have virtually no studying done, I have classwork for three courses that needs attention, and then there's the fretting about my living situation, jobs, and continual flow of bills and bad news that weighs me down. Praise God for being there and loving us and not leaving because life can really suck some times and I know I haven't seen the half of it yet. $53k in the hole and a seemingly non-existent job market does wonders for instilling hope in the next class of graduates.
Jokingly, the swine flu seems to be the one thing that will be good for the job market as it may thin out competition or create openings — however you'd like to say it. When I made the joke to a friend, I immediately realized that it wasn't all that funny but things can seem so bleak now that one knows there's three ways out of this, either the economy will grow or you or I will have to no longer be looking for work and there's only a few ways that happens — usually disability or death. I'm sure 2008 and 2009 will be record years for suicide — the question is who will outlast the weakest? Even if we survive, we've got years of debt that only our children will be able ("hope"-fully) pay off.... Obama's indentured servitude to be placed on the second and third generation. To be fair, Obama didn't cause this but he ain't helping it either. Now seems like a great time to find a third-world nation or slice of the West to settle down in and go off the grid, get to the simple life, focus on what's important — Jesus and blessing those around you.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Changes
So yesterday I found my bible and journal, both lost for at least six weeks. They were in a box in the basement. I found them just two days after I finally broke down and bought a new bible — a NASB.
Life is difficult and yet at times I question how I could think that. Not sure if I just like the pity or if my opinion on things is just always askew. Regardless, I've got a fair amount of work I could and should be doing, plus studying for a comp exam, updating my resume, creating a visual resume to do. I'm going to a conference in 10 days and I hope to get myself a job. After then, I'll be applying everywhere though sometimes I think I really don't want to move on.
Moving on means opportunity and new people, places, challenges, community. I'm okay with that but my prayer is that something would work out here. That I could find a job and hopefully a job where I get to be creative and really address issues, problems, challenges, adversity. I'm tired of inventing problems and trying to find solutions for them — and maybe those efforts will result in a business but as for right now, I've got to graduate and figure out how to make some coin.
Oh Lord, I need you and I want to be with you. I know you are near, I know you love me. Lord, please keep working on my heart and keep transforming it to be like yours, to be so desperately in love with you. Help me fall in love with your Word and in spending time with you. Help me to see your path for redemption in the people and the things that seem so fallen to me, the churches that seem so dysfunctional. Give me a hope and a desire to pray for your transformation of it all, to see your Glory come through the renovation and restoration of it all. Give me a heart of love and patience and grace for those who so annoy me, for those I would rather ignore, for those I'd rather defame, steal from, etc. Lord, get me a job here or in Ohio or the midwest — please! Help me know that you are near and that you won't leave me and have plans to prosper me.
Your son,
Eric
Life is difficult and yet at times I question how I could think that. Not sure if I just like the pity or if my opinion on things is just always askew. Regardless, I've got a fair amount of work I could and should be doing, plus studying for a comp exam, updating my resume, creating a visual resume to do. I'm going to a conference in 10 days and I hope to get myself a job. After then, I'll be applying everywhere though sometimes I think I really don't want to move on.
Moving on means opportunity and new people, places, challenges, community. I'm okay with that but my prayer is that something would work out here. That I could find a job and hopefully a job where I get to be creative and really address issues, problems, challenges, adversity. I'm tired of inventing problems and trying to find solutions for them — and maybe those efforts will result in a business but as for right now, I've got to graduate and figure out how to make some coin.
Oh Lord, I need you and I want to be with you. I know you are near, I know you love me. Lord, please keep working on my heart and keep transforming it to be like yours, to be so desperately in love with you. Help me fall in love with your Word and in spending time with you. Help me to see your path for redemption in the people and the things that seem so fallen to me, the churches that seem so dysfunctional. Give me a hope and a desire to pray for your transformation of it all, to see your Glory come through the renovation and restoration of it all. Give me a heart of love and patience and grace for those who so annoy me, for those I would rather ignore, for those I'd rather defame, steal from, etc. Lord, get me a job here or in Ohio or the midwest — please! Help me know that you are near and that you won't leave me and have plans to prosper me.
Your son,
Eric
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